Beautiful Chaos

Hello there!

Welcome to my first official post on my page. Creating a blog has been something I’ve wanted to do for years now, but I never had the courage to actually go through with it. I always found one reason or another as to why I couldn’t do it and how it would absolutely fail. Never once did I consider the possibility of what if it did work? What if I share my stories with others and it inspires them or even just comforts them when they really need it? We spend so much time doubting our abilities and listing reasons why things won’t work that sometimes we forget to consider even for a second that it could be the most amazing thing ever. So here I am giving it a shot because I’d rather have said I did it and it didn’t work out than to live my life wondering what could have happened had I just followed what my heart wanted.

From my page I’m sure you have gathered by now that I’m a 24 year old single mom, but that is not all that I am. Sometimes we get our identity so wrapped up in being a mom that we forget we are a person outside of that. Deep down I still have hopes, dreams, wishes and desires for myself as well. I love getting lost in a Nicholas Sparks book or watching my favorite romance movie that I can quote almost the entire thing at this point. I’m the girl who will buy the planner and calendar to get her life together and take the time to fill it out to turn around and not look at it for two weeks….minimum. I long to have those amazing relationships that I see others have but am too scared that if someone found the true me they wouldn’t want anything to do with me. I stay up way too late when I have to be up way too early and complain the whole day knowing it is only my fault. Im not perfect and never will be even close to it but I wake up everyday and try my best and as a person and now a mom that’s all anyone can do.

I’m so excited to bring you all along on this journey with me through this chaos called life and I hope that through my posts you will be inspired to be your true and 100% vulnerable selves because as Brené Brown says,

“You can’t get to courage without rumbling with vulnerability.”

Until next time my friends

-Ness